A woman who had undergone an abortion and later experienced a miscarriage expressed feeling as though she had “lost my opportunity for motherhood.”

In her book about her abortion, which she later regretted, Emily Turner describes her feelings when she became pregnant after her abortion and then miscarried.

“… I battled hard against the pretense that I didn’t deserve this baby. I had told myself that because I forfeited my chance at motherhood on that day in June, I didn’t deserve another. Within the week I started bleeding and at our doctor’s appointment a few days later, it was made clear that I was no longer pregnant.

See this, this is what I deserve. I wanted to be sad and I was sad, but expressing my sorrow felt shameful. After all, I didn’t deserve this baby anyway, right? I didn’t deserve the gift of motherhood or a chance for redemption.”

Emily Turner, The “A” Words: My Story from Abuse and Abortion Into Understanding Freedom (undated)