Cunningham now says she won’t abort her baby to increase chances of appearing on British reality TV

 

By Dave Andrusko

Josie Cunningham

Josie Cunningham

Skeptics will no doubt be even more skeptical that her threat to abort was ever sincere, but the good—make that great news—is that Josie Cunningham now says she is not going to abort her baby in order to bolster her chances of appearing on the British reality show, Celebrity Big Brother.

Cunningham, the mother of two boys, told British media outlets over the weekend that she was coming back after picking up her sons from school last week “and as I sat in the car I suddenly felt a big kick in my tummy.”

But it was not as simple as feeling her unborn child announce his/her presence in an undeniable way. Cunningham was still torn, according to an account in The Mirror. Indeed, she continued to struggle with her desire for fame and the reality of her growing unborn baby.

Cunningham had raised a tremendous row when she told The Mirror the previous week that before she became pregnant she was on the short list to appear on Big Brother. “I’m finally on the verge of becoming famous and I’m not going to ruin it now,” Cunningham said.

She added, “An abortion will further my career. This time next year I won’t have a baby. Instead, I’ll be famous, driving a bright pink Range Rover and buying a big house. Nothing will get in my way.” (The show would later say there was no way she would appear, having publicly announced her intentions to abort.)

But that was before the “Big Kick.” Cunningham told The Mirror’s Gemma Aldridge

“It took me totally by surprise. Before that I had only felt little butterfly-like feelings. This was a real boot. I never imagined how hard it would be to have an abortion after that.”

Still, she pondered what to do for a day, 24 hours of “turmoil,” according the Mirror, “as she convinced herself she needed to stick with her ­decision to achieve a career in the spotlight.” Undergirding that reluctance to change her mind seemed to be a combination of lingering hope that the show might still have her on and tremendous anger/resentment at those who publicly criticized her announcement.

But that same night she watched “videos of abortions close to the 24-week legal limit,” according to Aldridge. Why?

“I’d had so many angry tweets from people telling me to look at pictures of foetuses at 18 or 19 weeks and to understand what I was doing,” she told Aldridge. “I was so stubborn I just ignored them. But as I lay awake the night before the appointment, I cracked. I felt the baby kicking again and I couldn’t stop myself from looking on my phone. What I saw horrified me. They looked like fully formed babies and I read there have been 66 cases where aborted foetuses have come out alive because their mothers left the decision so late. I lay in bed and sobbed. Doubts crept in.”

Yet, even after all that, the following morning she was in a taxi on the way to the abortion clinic.

“But her unborn child had other ideas,” Aldridge wrote.

“Josie, 23, reveals how it literally kick-started doubts that she was doing the wrong thing – and made her flee in tears moments before signing in for her abortion at a private clinic.

“’I just couldn’t do it,’ sobbed young mum Josie. ‘I really thought I would be able to but I couldn’t. I’d felt the baby kick for the first time 24 hours earlier and I couldn’t get that feeling out of my head.

“’I’d forgotten what the feeling was like. It was magical. It was like the baby was telling me not to go through with it.

“’I was in the taxi driving to the clinic and felt physically sick. I was shaking. When the driver told me we were a minute away I burst into tears. I wanted to throw myself out of the moving car to get away. I had my hands on my bump and I had the strongest feeling I couldn’t let anyone take my baby away.’”

Cunningham’s “U-turn,” as the tabloids called it, have given further ammunition to those who thought the whole threat was a hoax. Cunningham told Aldridge she expected more criticism:

“I lost control and I wanted to be famous so badly I lost sight of what matters. I’m disgusted with myself and I’m sorry – not to the haters but to the child I’m going to have. Now I’ve made this decision I am determined to be a good mother just like I am to my other children.”

Cunningham, whose baby is due in October, “says she has now stopped drinking and is planning to have hypnotherapy to get off cigarettes.”