By Sarah Terzo
Anna C shares this picture of her aborted daughter:
Her name is May Lynn and she has a story. She was my daughter, murdered by me via abortion at 24 weeks. In light of these Planned Parenthood videos I want to share her story.
Hardly anyone knew and the few people that did, I lied to, never admitting that her blood was on my hands. I couldn’t even admit it to the hospital staff. I told everyone (only a handful of people) it was just a crazy misfortune.
She changed everything for me. Now I knew I had been lied to. Now I knew regret. Now I knew what I had done. I was a murderer. The heavy guilt of that hit me like a freight train.
It hit me the hardest when I woke up in the hospital bed with her in my arms and she was warm from my own body heat and for a moment I could pretend that I hadn’t done what I had done…. until I couldn’t pretend any more.
It hit me again when I called and begged the funeral home to unseal her casket so I could hold her one last time. Those precious, tiny fingers. That soft skin and tiny little mouth. Every time I hold my other children… but never her….
It hit me again when I buried her with only one person there to comfort me, my closest confidant who still didn’t even know what I had done.
It hit me again when I woke up in my car in the cemetery.
And again when my life had to keep moving and I felt to guilty to mourn her. Who has a right to mourn who they’ve killed? I thought…
It hits me every time I think about it and wonder what kind of little girl she would have been. Or think how she’d be getting her license to drive about now…
And she wasn’t the first. She was my 3rd child dead by my own hands. I’d never seen the reality of what I’d done because I’d never held them. It was easy to pretend that it had never happened. But this time, there was no denying it.
I struggled for years with the guilt. I still feel the regret. But I praise God to know how precious life is. I praise God that He extends mercy and grace to me. Even to me, a mother that would kill her own flesh and blood. I praise God that people are starting to wake up, and I praise God that Planned Parenthood is being revealed for what they are.
Editor’s note. This appeared at Clinic Quotes and is reposted with permission.