By Sarah Terzo
A therapist specializes in postabortion trauma describes one of her cases:
Post-abortion, Leeann was unable to drive her vehicle. She experienced deep terror, shivering, nausea and disorientation. Indeed, this young woman had become so paralyzed with fear of others “knowing” about what she had done, that she was unable to drive her other three children to school, shop for the family, or even go to the corner store. The car, to this young woman, represented something so painful and so awful that she reacted violently against it. When someone else drove Leanne, she experienced no reaction. She could not even sit in her car alone.
Over many counseling sessions it emerged that she made the final decision to abort whilst driving in her car. She even insisted on driving herself to the clinic (her boyfriend went with her to drive them home after) and all the way there she kept hoping for an accident to happen. These two events, that is, the definitive abortion decision made in the car, and her willing herself to have an accident so that she would not have to go through with the abortion, left on her heart and mind an indelible mark. After the abortion itself, the fear remained that she might still have an accident, especially when she had her children in the car. She had lost complete confidence in her skills in driving, coupled with guilt about the abortion and “his” (God’s) anticipated punishment of her through her children, led to her panic attacks. Much work was done to reestablish her confidence in God and herself and today after many months she is able to drive again.
Anne R. Lastman, Redeeming Grief: Abortion and Its Pain (Balwyn, Vic: Australia: Gracewing, 2013)p. 118.
Editor’s note. This appeared at Clinic Quotes and is reposted with permission.