By Sarah Terzo
From one woman who had an abortion:
“I was not thrilled at all about this pregnancy, but I knew I could never abort one of my children. It’s something I have always felt so strongly about. My husband, on the other hand, told me that there was absolutely no way we could afford to bring another life into this world and our only option was to abort. It didn’t matter what he said at the time because, despite the unfortunate circumstances, this baby was already a part of me and I had already loved it.
I tried keep a positive attitude towards the situation, telling him how we have survived way worse things then having a child. I told him that it was our mistake for not using protection during sex and that we had to grow up and deal with the consequences of our actions. I promised to get my tubes tied so we wouldn’t have to go through having another child ever again.
None of my efforts worked. Ten days later, after being verbally abused, ignored, and basically treated like the scum of the earth, I made my appointment to have an abortion. Part of me didn’t want my child to be born with a dad so hateful. I figured my baby would be better off in heaven then in my own home.
The day that I decided to have an abortion was the absolute worst day of my entire life. … It’s been three days and I have not stopped crying. I have nightmares about my baby every night. Whenever I get a moment to myself, I break down and cry. It’s the type of pain you can feel in your bones, the type of regret that never goes away. I have dropped out of the online class I was taking because I can’t seem to focus on anything but the child I killed. I am divorcing my husband and quitting my job to move down south with a family member. I sleep with a teddy bear at night now because of the emptiness I feel inside…
I am here to tell anybody who thinks that having another child is hard that nothing is as hard as reliving the image of a complete stranger taking that child from you. It’s disgusting and I hate myself every second of the day.”
Ashley Wehrli, “15 Women Who Regretted Their Abortion Tell All” Babygaga, April, 20, 2018.
Editor’s note. This appeared at Clinic Quotes and is reposted with permission.