By Dave Andrusko
Abby Johnson is best known to friend and foe alike for her riveting book, “unPlanned: The Dramatic True Story of a Former Planned Parenthood Leader’s Eye-Opening Journey Across the Life Line.” We’ve written about her experience coming out of the pro-abortion darkness and into the pro-life light several times. For those who may not recall, Abby directed a Planned Parenthood clinic in Texas and was carried out of the anti-life clutches on a wave of unconditional love.
She blogs, and today’s entry is just heart-wrenching. It’s titled, “My Empty Uterus.”
In her book Abby confesses—I believe that is the correct description for how she feels—to having had two abortions. She is the mother of four-year-old Grace, and her anguish over her two lost children, and her inability to become pregnant again, is painfully eloquent testimony to the hurt and the loss and the regret that makes a mockery of the antiseptic idea of “choice.”
We also see exampled in her thoughts today what is so typical in crisis pregnancies: women seal themselves off from natural support systems. In her book Abby told us that she did not inform her parents about either of her first two pregnancies “until it was too late” (as she wrote today). “That wasn’t fair. The rest of my family didn’t know. My friends didn’t know. I never gave anyone a chance to help me…to give me sound counsel. I didn’t want it. I must have thought I knew what was best…but honestly, I don’t remember much about it at all.”
The final quarter of her blog entry is a meditation on God and His forgiveness, on what He has planned for her in the future with respect to motherhood (“I know that my husband and I are going to adopt children from the foster care system”), and her confidence that someday she will see her first two children.
Abby concludes with further heartfelt thoughts on forgiveness, and then this:
“I sincerely think that evil lives in our past and in our future…the two places we cannot control. God doesn’t worry about those two periods of time. He wants us to wake up every day and live for Him…moment by moment…day by day. I trust in that. I trust in God’s plan for my life.
“I don’t know if I will have any more children of my own. I don’t pray for children…I pray for God’s will.”